In this session of Moonshine, taught by Effy Wild, I intend to explore the meaning of “MOTHER” in my life. Growing up, my mother did not love me. I was an unwanted child. I was the scapegoat for all that went wrong in my family. My mother told me constantly that I was worthless, bad, and that she wished I had never been born. She abused me in all ways possible and did not protect me from being abused physically, sexually and emotionally from others. I grew up in a nightmare that seemed to go on forever. My family was Catholic and the only solace I found was in turning to the Virgin Mary. She became my Mother and later, as I grew older I explored other cultures and other religions finding solace in the Devine Mother in all her aspects and forms.
When it comes to my life as an adult, I do not have biological children of my own. At times I feel a sadness about this as I always thought that I would have children. This loss saddens me greatly at times. I am a teacher and have helped and influenced many of my students in a motherly way. In this course I intend to explore all of these issues and more through journaling using the daily prompts and artwork. I am hoping that this is going to be an experience of growth, healing and creative expression.